Wednesday, April 7, 2010

New Discoveries

I Love You Son. Well as I mentioned before, there would be gaps before updates. The fact that I'm continuing this says a lot for me. You have been maturing. You are more aware of your sense of self these days and your balance is excellent. You are becoming a husky boy, getting heavier by the day, taller by the day, and you are using logic and reason to make decisions. You are learning boundaries and consequences of your actions - sometimes.

You have taken to smacking your Mom and I in the face, only as a form of expression, but you catch yourself and stop. You've been sticking your right index finger into my left eye and then keep it there. You make attempts to feed me air and my reply is "Yuck", then I make as if I'm going to drop you, which you find humorous. Your words right now are "Uh-oh-oh, oh", "T", and of course "Dad", and on inconsistent occasions "Mom".

You have taken to playing with cars and vehicles of sorts. In fact today, you were playing on the window sill with your cars and took a brief break to get a Cheerio from the oval glass coffee table. You returned with a single Cheerio and proceeded to run your cars around it. In an attempt to move it over, it stuck to the tip of your finger, as it has in the past which you find an amusing way to eat your Cheerios, and then ate it. You returned to the coffee table to continue sticking more cheerios to the tip of your index fingers and eat them when you had dropped one on the carpet on your way back to the window sill. It was my absolute delight to see your thought process in action here. You picked up the Cheerio, looked around for a solid place to lay the Cheerio down upon so you could re-stick it to your finger and considered the nearest object to you, which was the pellet stove base, but I could tell you thought it to be too bumpy, so then you turned back to the glass coffee table, placed it down, then stuck it on your finger tip and into your pie trap.

I was very proud to have witnessed that event. You are becoming more and more independent and I am proud to see you grow. I know you're only 21 months now, but you amaze me daily.

You enjoy sitting and turning the pages of your books, quietly. You especially enjoy the Alphabet Slide-show Disks that I made for you that have both Mom and I recorded on as we recite the ABC's. You Enjoy music and you have a great little grove where you shake your hips side to side. Winter is nearing its end and Spring is in the air. Pretty soon we'll be able to go outside more and it will be a completely new adventure for you. I'll keep you posted!!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

First Concert

I love you son. Well. its actually been a couple weeks now since you attended your first major musical concert - Dave Mathews Band @ the Gorge in George, WA (technically, the first was Eddie Money at Kitsap County Fairgrounds in Silverdale, WA). DMB concert was meant to be. It was pouring down rain the entire way there (3.5 hours from door to door). Due to the weather, we traveled 26 mi further East to "Moses Lake" to purchase a couple plastic tarps in order to help keep us dry (outdoor event). Your mother and I had experienced DMB here two years prior so we knew it'd be a good experience for you.

Upon our arrival to the Gorge, the weather still with rain but lighter now. It was a balmy 65-70* degrees. We started for the concert area, surrounded by rainbows and actual peeks of sun ray. In fact as soon as the sun showed presence all the people around us cheered aloud and you peered at all around you with curious eyes of uncertainty yet you maintained comfort without fear, as you do. Our evening was blessed, from there on the skies remained dry the rest of the evening. We met some friendly people (of course all were enjoying your attention) and the concert was awesome both vocally and visually. We picked a great spot on the grass on the slanted hill which gave you an ongoing challenge trying to negotiate (but one thing I've noticed is that you enjoy new challenges).

We were surrounded by a large number of people which took you a little while to get used to but once you did, it was like being at home for you. When the main band took stage (DMB) I took hold of you and didn't put you down until we left (just before encore). You were just comfortable and your mother and I wanted you to have a pleasurable experience. In fact for me it was the best concert experience ever by having you there. Just a couple songs in and you had become tired, so you just lay slumped in my arms while we swayed to the music (that's were my energy derives-music). Just before the audience would cheer, I would do our "count", and we started doing the "count" on account of 4th of July with the loud fireworks and that would prepare you for something abrupt. "1-2-3"Yay" is what I'd say for this one. As soon as you heard the count you knew to expect people to get loud and you got so familiar with this that you would produce a little "scream" and participate with the rest of us. The best concert ever. I feel I am the luckiest man to have experienced that.

As you slept in my arms, you would pick your head up off my chest and peer around you whenever the audience cheered and then immediately lie your head back down. I'm thinking you might have been in such a relaxed state thanks to all the second hand reefer "contact high" around us - and there was a lot. It was a sober concert for us though and a great experience too. We wouldn't have wanted it any other way. We left around 11PM and drove to Nana&Nano's that night to sleep. And in the morning... enjoying life all over again.

Friday, September 4, 2009

Welcome to the World Son, Adam

Hello Son,

I love you. It has been a fast, rewarding, challenging year to me. I have always enjoyed a quality challenge throughout my life and boy, let me tell you - you are the best one yet. I get a little choked-up, nostalgic as I reflect back on this year of staying home with you and raising you with your mom. Your mother is the best person I know on this earth. She is selfless, loving, patient, accepting, strong, determined and most beautiful and attractive women to me. You will learn we all make certain sacrifices to achieve greatness and your mother has given me the opportunity to teach you life. Her sacrifice is time (the greatest sacrifice), so that we may afford to function as a unit, as a family.

These writings will be specifically about my feelings, experiences, my learning's of spending time with you and raising you to become a man. This may come to surprise you, but I do not know it all. I am learning everyday. My advantage however is my awareness of observation and ability to anticipate your actions. But again, as I mentioned, I learn everyday. We will teach each other - and I am excited for you and your future to come. You will feel joy, anger, pain and peace. As parents our inclination is to protect you in every way, but if we interfere how will you learn, how will you experience the power of emotion and control and grow. Life is a gift and life's greatest purpose is to allow you choice - that is your freedom as a being. Your mom and I will provide you direction and your opportunity will be to guide your own path. Niiiiiice.

My goal in raising you is for you to be happy, independent, responsible, intelligent and aware. My PROMISE to you is to demonstrate those qualities and many more through leading by example. So, may my actions speak louder than my words "walk the talk" so to speak. I will always be within reach physically or spiritually. You will always have my strength within you. You CAN do anything - choice - that is your freedom, be wise. Think all things through, your actions and reactions. Reflect on mistakes you make in order to prevent recurrences. Life is an ongoing lesson to learn from. It is through our mistakes that we educate and even find ourselves. Preferably learning from others mistakes will save you a lot of time and grief. The best things in life take time and are rarely ever rushed, so be patient - learn to read the trends. One day at a time is a good pace "live in the moment". PREPARE for the worst, but EXPECT the best.

Dad's not the best at "time-management", so expect clumps of time to pass between my logs' input. Please forgive me for that. But perhaps that only means I found better use of my time... with you and your mother, because that is the BEST use of my time. I am proud of you.